Monday, January 28, 2008

Missing Grandma

Yesterday I was reminded that it had been a year since my grandma passed away. She died on the 26th of January. I was shocked and disappointed in myself that I forgot all about it on the actual day. I mean, I knew that the anniversary of her death was coming up and I guess I didn't put any other thought into it and let it pass me by. I was also disappointed that I did not lay new flowers at her grave in remembrance.

And then I got to thinking...it's o.k. that I forgot one day. I had to remind myself that I've been up to visit her grave about a dozen times already and have laid plenty of flowers.

Come to think of it, I think of her everyday.

I have a plant in my Wizard of Oz room that had been given to me at her funeral. It's a peace plant. It has big green leaves and rarely blooms flowers. (I'm really not good at keeping plants alive, but this one has managed to last a year so far.) Every day as I pass this plant, I feel comforted. Today, I noticed it bloomed three flowers. WOW! I guess I can keep something growing. (Maybe I got a little help from grandma.) There are some who would say that this is a coincidence, but I choose to look at it as a gift—a miracle—a reminder of the love from grandma.

Thanks grandma...I miss you lots.

3 comments:

Aimee said...

that's a nice post Mel, thanks for the cry as I read it!

Anonymous said...

I still miss her to Melanie. She was a hard working, fun lady to be with. The memories are great ones.
Grandma sent 3 flowers your way on the peace lily plant. One for each of you girls.Remember, she had a magic green thumb.
Sorry our visit was so short on Sunday.
Love you Mom

Jess said...

really sweet post. it's amazing how much you can miss someone you loved so much. my gramma died in 1994 and i still think about her daily. my mom and i started a tradition of baking an "angel" food cake on the day she died rather than bringing flowers to her grave. it really makes you focus on all of the postive things you miss and changes the day to a happy celebration of sorts. (plus my husband is excited we have cake in the house) :)